hm.. actually jus post somthin.. n i decided not to post it for the day.. hm.. i jus broke down in the toilet 5 min ago.. i sat on the floor.. cryin.. i dunno wad i am doin.. but i jus cried jus now.. my voice i tried to remain the same.. as i went out den my sis tok to mi.. i broke down again.. how i iwsh i can disappear from now.. i hate my life.. is has been destroyed in my own hands.. i can take control of everythin.. but i jus gave it out.. my life has been seriously destroyed... who i am suan le.. since u saw my posts.. i noe u will angry de.. i noe i must sae SORRY.. well.. i am used to le.. so jus let mi sae ok.. SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY!! i felt tat i am so useless everythin i take the first step.. haiz.. y will everythin not jus happen behind my back.. i am so fan.. can any1 jus take mi away..?? sorry sorry sorry for not postin anythin 2day.. i jus cancel my post.. buaiz!!