I had been crying these few days.. continously.. got scolded on sat by mum. got scolded on sun by mum too through phone. i broke down in madonald. Hui was with me. She knew i was kinda pissed off that day. I was recently having bad moods. Everything just gone wrong. Nothing have peacefully go through the way i want. Yesterday, sis helen came my house for home visiting. My parents, again, complained. I was there listening and my face changed. They did not save any face for me. And my dad once again complained about the time i came home. That time he told ms soh that i was home at around 8 plus everyday. I indeed tried to change. And these few weeks i did not come home late. At most about 7 plus reached home. My dad went complaining that i was home late everyday at aroound 5 plus to 6 plus. I was so freaking pissed by what he was uphappy with. At that time, I felt like shouting right in front of sis helen. They just could not understand that the whole week i was packed!! Mon. lesson end at 2.10. and sometimes i had eng remedial. tues lesson end at 2.10 and maths remedial.. wed lesson end at 2.10 and i have Gb. thurs which is the lastest.. sch end at 2.10 and i got bio rememdial which end at abt 4.. and straight away have chem. till 6 plus.. fri lesson end at 12.10 and i have Gb that day.

isn't the whole week of my school life fully pack?
how can i go home straight away after school?
CAN'T U JUST UNDERSTAND HOW TIRED I AM?

i hate myself for everything.
i don't know which way to walk.
i just feel like giving up everything right now.
can i just drop dead for a very long time.
i need my REST right now.
i can't take in anymore pressure and stress.

ahjores.. thx ya..
i know you are trying to cheer me up and encourage me.
thx ya for the full-scape.
the piece that you had drawn out my name.
as dearest SHIPING!! thx chelle too.
thx shir,junmei,jores,mui,yue,eda,hui,sam,ben, "U", von
thx u guys for encouraging me.

yesterday, i went to the course "conquering the final lap"
yup. it was indeed a fun and nice course.
i learnt a lot of things in the course.
GOD.. are u trying to tell me something through this course?
oh ya.. recently there are a lot of people having injuries..
take care ya? hm.. and do be careful not to injure yourself anymore.
slippers? haha.. You know i am saying about u!! haha..
sitting right in front of me giving me the 'bang' hand. haha
do take care?

now at cr2 finishing video. the com is damn laggy.
anyway.. i am freezing here!!! my finger is numb!!
i shall end my post..
take care peeps!!
luv ya guys!! muacks!




as you can see.
i am so lazy to think of which colour to choose.
that's why this post has all sort of colours.