okok.. i shall update now.. every1 keep tellin mi tat i haven really updates my blog.. ok.. tis shall be a quick 1? yeah?.. hm.. ya.. jus roughly said wad i had done recently.. ok.. i jus remembered tat.. dunno which sun.. i broke down in front of alex.. yup.. tink onli he knew wad had happened.. i had the same thoughts through out.. even though i may seems alrite.. but the same 'kind' of feeling was jus ther.. ok.. wad shall i sae.. hm.. mayb i can get rid of this thoughts.. but it does seem workin.. tryin my best to tink of a positive side.. but it nv work. rite now.. the thought is gettin more n more fan!! ok.. wad shall i sae.. i knew i may be at wrong.. but i knew that wad i sae is gettin no pt as no 1 will bother to listen wad.. anyway.. jus got scolded by my parents like nite.. haiz.. jus hate the feelin.. alrite.. i shall end my post here.. if i am free den i will be back to post!! take care n enjoy ur holis peeps!