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Smiling Days
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TUESDAY 13/06 Should I say blogging as a disaster or something which i turn to when i am not feeling good? well. I hope that blogging is not a disaster for me. definitely not. but it does not seems so to me. there are many advantages and disadvantages about blog. I am not in a right mood these few days. partially because of the bills. and the thing i am always stuck in. I has yet find a way out of these prob. but it does not help me to stop thinking abt it. I have been asking myself if i had really done it wrong in the first place. but i could not say out as it is not her wish. i am so stuck now. i now that maybe they won't blame me. but i think that i am part of it. well.. let's hope that everything will be fine soon! My mum has been a great terror to me. even though i am unhappy. i could not voice out. i just had to shut my mouth up. i do not know what is wrong. but I just know that everything is my fault just because i am not the brillant kid in this place. and even though i had tried my best. it does not prove her any wrong. at first i though that she was stressed out about moving house. well.. some part is true. but others not. when she came home after worked. she started scolding. i don't know why. and the first person she scolded is me. just because i was using the com or using the phone. i was so pissed last night. i only used the phone for less than 10 mins she shouted like as if i had burned out the phone. i felt like arguing back. but i kept quiet. everything changes when i came here. i can't understand. i don't feel that we are more close than we used to. even though i might be out at times. now is even worst. i seldom talk now. after dinner i will go up to my room and stayed there till next day. i just felt that it is pointless talking to them. as they will push the fault to me. i felt anti-social now. I missed my old place. I really missed it! I missed the place where we will be abled to talk more. I missed the part that we can share things. I could not stand it anymore. I could not! *tearing. My mum is back now. and the first sentence she said was not "hi, I am back." but she "scolded" me again. *i wonder how long i need to hold on now* This holi just sux! IS ever boring. I had finally completed reading the book. it was indeed a very nice story. but the ending was an unhappy one. i am getting tired!! I had to stop touching my phone these few days. my mum will scream till crazy if she see me touching it. *sorry to those who have sms me or call me* PBB camp is just next week. and the packing list has not been given. what we have to bring.. is a hard questiong to answer. i DO not like last minute. I just hate to rush things up last min. FURTHERMORE... i hate making desicion. Don't ask me how and where. i hate it when i am so troubled making desicion. i have to be back to my *troubled land* NO.. i shall say.. i am back to this place when i am not out. I hate myself for everything. I hate it. I hate it. why must i be the one who need to be responsible? WHY? WHY? a big question running through my head recently. I HATE IT! SENTOSA TRIP IS ON FRIDAY! MEET AT 10.30a.m.!! THX YOU! *sorry for not letting you know how i feel now* *i do not want any worries for you* *i wonder how you are now. even though we had not talked much recently. i hope that you are fine now. I hope that the thinkings will be gone! smile always.. take care!* well.. i shall end my post now! =) take care peeps. AND JEROME!!! DRINK MORE WATER EVERYONE!!!! |