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Smiling Days
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I am tired. came back after night study. study for a-maths test which is on tomorrow since ytd. my brain is tired. but nevertheless.. all the troubles and problems keep flowing through my mind. even though i seriously want to focus, i can't. I am just tired of being myself right now. I am wondering.. wondering what will happen after "O". It is a serious big question mark to me right now. I do not know how to answer about what i am going to do. even though i am thinking some of it right now, but i just don't know whether to continue this thinking. actually.. i hate to watch idol series. because everytime i watch one story, my heart and mind will start to change for different views. but i did not do it the way. Don't ask me why i am so dull and moody everyday. even though i may seems all right, but everything isn't right. I don't blame anyone for the disturbing images. thinking through what had happened had really caused me to think why everything just happened to me. i seriously hate that day. i hate it to the sore. i know is fun disturbing someone. but think of this, when i disturb you.. will you ever like it? if you don't, what for disturb others? don't you know that disturbing someone will cause him/her to think alot? don't you know that disturbing someone will cause them to feel uneasy? I can seriously tell you that i had exploded that day. I did not show out because.. i felt that it was pointless. if ever showing out that you are unhappy and it works. it is a miracle. i hate to stuff every single stuff into my brain. i am tired mentally.. and i am tired physically too. i can't suffer on. i hope for better days. if you could ever not disturb people, it will be a better day for me. i seriously hope. i can be easily affected by what you say. i am overcoming this. but i doubt so... should i continue this relationship..? it has turned out to me that i should stop dreaming about my own sweet fairytale. as every step i am trying to be into this, it is a nearer distance to hurt.. don't blame me if i really hurt our relationship towards one another. maybe i am just worn off with everything i have now. i can't continue to be the one smiling and not bothering what people says about me i hate people doing some silly and childish thing behind my back. as when i know it.. it hurts me twice the pain if i ever scolded you. but no worries. i won't easily get to start to open my mouth. i will tolerate or not even bother with the stuff. but.. once again... it will set me thinking of what is really best for me. i am most probably leaving. even though it was the first place i get to know GOD. but i do not like being transparent. i hate it. anyway.. if there is changes now.. i don't think it will bring me back to there. but well.. i shall wait and see.. as i have not make up my mind. |