I am tired..
haha..
having headache ever since i woke up in the morning.
argh!
i just dislikes headache.
i am like having headache for more than 12 hrs?
omg.. that is so pathetic la..


I ponder about these few days.
yeah..
and there are many things to think abt.
haiz..
everything seems to be so lost.
why is that everything that i cherish is getting
further from me?
why is that everything is piling up day by day?
why is that i cannot take a rest?
why is this why is that?
i could not take it anymore.
i am pouring out my doubts!!
i just hate everything that troubles me!
I REALLY HATE IT!
CAN'T YOU JUST GIVE ME A BREAK?
I AM HUMAN TOO!!
I NEED REST!
i could no longer tolerate nonsence..
i can be easily agitated for what i have!


i am utterly disappointed in you.
i can't believe for what i knew.
you have taken away what i have the greatest upon you.
i thought that you are the most mature between so many
people.
but.. nevertheless.. you spoiled your image that i admire upon you.
i am disappointed.
i doubted myself for what i believed.
i thought that i always believe the right thing.
but.. it does not seem as if i am right.
i have been troubled.
yeah.. i admit that i am pissed.
but i knew that for no matter what..
i don't think that being pissed with someone will ever help.
it will come to no conclusion.
and everything has yet come to a conclusion.
you believe in that..
but i feel that is pointless afterall.
i don't think will ever help.
i am blaming myself.
everything started from me.
IT IS ME WHO IS ALWAYS AT FAULT!
I HATE MYSELF FOR THAT!!
i really hate it!


i am stunned when i read that.
i do not know how to reply.
i don't think there is a need to reply you.
but i went ahead.
is not that i am not replying you always.
i got my reasons for doing the things i did.
i thought i have told you clearly.
but it does not seems to be working.
do you have spilt personalties?
i know i am being bad.
I know that you are quite a nice person.
but.. don't waste your time on things
that won't happen.
i can't push myself any longer.
i am tired!
I AM SERIOUSLY SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYTHING!
i hope that i can sleep for a long long time!
i miss my sleeping days.
i really miss it!
I miss those days that i could be happy and
having no doubts and suspicious eyes looking at me.


i hate suspicious eyes.
i hate to explain things that come to no conclusion.
i hate to give you cold shoulders.. that
is the way that i can do for not giving you
the wrong impressions
why must you question me?
why??
i am trying to tell you i am not into it!
WHY!!!!
i hate THESE THREE LETTERS!!
I HATE IT!!
argh!


*i am not saying about my cliques..dont't worry!! =)*


thanks for being patience..
thanks for the sweet time.
thanks for everything!!
=))