many thoughts have been running through
my mind today.
i was busy thinking about everything.

i am not statisfied by what have been with me recently.
i am not the kind that will be able to face everything.
i am not the kind that will be patience.
i am not.
i am just a person who has many feelings.
seriously many feelings.
it is hard for me to accept.
it is hard for me to bring up my faith.
it is hard for me to build up that good relationship.
i am losing out..

i am losing in the competition that i had given myself.
it was a hope but turned out to be a false one.
shall i hold on or back out?


i hope that the small swelling on my right eye will be
alright.
it is painful when i touched it.
don't know what's wrong with my eye.



leave me alone.